To sleep, perchance, to dream.

Reality is beginning to bleed along the edges. Nothing to sound the alarms about, but things are getting increasingly muddled for me. Sleep has become a dreaded event, and im beginning to really fucking hate those “little slices of death.”
In fact, death would be welcomed, for at least I would have some peace and quiet, because right now, I feel as though I’m being plagued by bloodthirsty hounds, no matter where I go.
Nightmares happen, of that I’m aware. Thing is, whole I can cope with nightmares, the constant panic attacks that rouse me out of a dead sleep, are harder to deal with. Compound that with these horrific, emotionally rending dreams of exes trying to rape me, wolves attacking en masse, wave after wave, and me, screaming at my mother for every sin she committed in my childhood, and you’ve got eight hours of hell.
About three times a night, I awaken, heart pounding, disoriented and raw. During the day, I am a walking corpse, exhausted and fighting off the dream images that flood my mind, even when I’m awake.
There is no rest from the wicked, and I am becoming frayed, strand by strand.

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